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InvisibleWhen I was 14 years old,
it was the day I thought of suicide.
Slicing my legs and my arms,
wanting this pain to end.
My heart was always broken,
the moment you laid your hands on me.
I wish I just given up in life,
but I kept pushing through.
When I was young,
I thought i was a foolish girl.
Thinking there was love in life,
just to find heartaches and pain.
My smile was always fake,
maybe once in awhile I wouldn't show it.
But the day I felt pain,
I lost my smile for good.
I felt like dying numerous of times,
but never ended it fully.
Once in awhile I felt free,
but my heart ripped to pieces.
Maybe when my life is gone,
I will be noticed in the afterlife.
But until that day comes,
I will always be invisible to this world.
Gave me MeaningMy love for you is so deep,
you are the one that makes me filled with light.
You make my life filled with happiness,
never an ounce of pain or even sadness.
My love for you is unbearable,
my heart is finally whole thanks to you.
You are the one that gave my life meaning,
the moment I first saw you I smiled with joy.
You filled my life with hope,
given me the courage to move my life forward.
In my life you are perfect to me,
and I will always love you until the end.
My Little FriendEverywhere I look,
I always think of you here,
beside me, keeping me safe,
but you're no where to be found.
Everywhere I am I see your vision,
the cute sensation of your purrs,
always beside me,
keeping me safe.
You were always by my side,
in my thoughts and in my mind.
Everywhere I am,
I wish you were here.
You weren't just a cat to me,
but deep down you were my best friend.
You have always been in my heart,
and now I lost my best friend.
I wish you were with me,
to hear the sounds of my cries.
But now you are forever gone,
and tears start to fall.
You are always deep in my heart,
remembered by amazing thoughts.
I love you with all my heart,
you are the one that made everything seem better.
RIP Mr. BeanYou're in my heart,
kept safely in my thoughts.
I love you so much,
you will always be missed.
You were an amazing kitty,
I wish you were still here.
but now you are in kitty heaven,
watching down on me.
I want to hold you tightly,
be there for you always.
I miss you so much,
you will always be in my thoughts.
You were so handsome,
so cuddly, and so precious.
I love you with all my heart,
you are the one that made me feel safe.
You will always be loved,
by this family that always cared.
You are now up in kitty heaven,
and deep within my heart...
Fighting through DepressionTears rolling down, in the rain I stand.
Trying to smile, but no where to be found.
I wish my life would end, but I am only going deeper.
How did it all end this way? What have I done?
I cry myself to sleep, wishing this pain would disappear.
One drop of blood, drips down the sensitive skin of mine.
One drop of tear, rolling down my burning face.
All these flashbacks, flood deeper in my mind.
The name calls, that were given.
The abuse, that never ended.
Was everything all my fault?
What have I done wrong?
One tear, in the rain that pours.
The smile I fake, wishing I would die today.
The weight I lose, in this moment of my life.
How I wish, I could take this knife to my veins.
Wondering what drove me, to the deepest in my thoughts.
Are all these memories, telling me what I did wrong?
I wish it would all end, leaving me breathless and insecure.
Maybe one day I will be free, away from this world where I belong
Life of AnorexiaI starve myself,
for the desire to be thinner.
I have lost so much weight,
but my mind tells me a different story.
I have the desire for perfection,
in hopes someone will love me.
I am not perfect,
nor am I beautiful.
I lose more weight,
for the desire of perfectionist.
But my mind tells me to keep going,
I become thinner then normal.
Food makes me sick,
I feel unworthy, hopeless, a failure.
Maybe if I lose more weight,
I will feel beautiful, secure, and hopeful.
This is the thoughts I crave,
the memories i receive.
The desire for perfection,
is what my mind tells me everyday.
Kenosis (Open Cage)Kenosis (Open Cage)
Fingertips are pressed against my heart,
My mouth agape, toes curling
As my hands grip her elbow,
Holding her for dear life as she retracts…
My central organ.
“Jesus Christ, don’t break it.”
My eyes close as my voice shakes,
Holding her arm in between tight my fingers.
Her own fingers then dig into her breastplate,
Unlocking the cage of her ribs,
Opening the window to her world,
And she looks at me expectantly.
“I’m scared. Terrified, but I want you to have it.”
“I can’t take this. I can’t. I’m not—“
“It’s already yours.”
My heart quickens in her soft grip.
As she places her in mine,
And mine inside of her rib cage.
Her forehead presses against mine,
Blood on our fingers and tears in our eyes,
We know we’re in deep.
Drowning. And not wanting to come back up.
I never want anyone to find me.
I’ve found it already.
And it’s when brown and gr
Never say goodbye, dragonflyWords never hold you down,
you’re a child of the clouds,
dreamin’ marshmallows and peanut butter cups.
Stars that bloom in luminous petals,
from Mars to Jupiter,
watercolor your wings.
Do it againPress your lips
Hold me close,
And drench me in
Your scent again.
Kiss me me again
But this time
Tell me you need me.
Conociendonos....:cap 4jiji aquí esta la siguiente!
R: ya era hora! tenia mucha hambre!
N: jeje,eres tan gracioso Rigby! "le sonríe"
R: si lo se.....*cara de caradura*
C: ah si claro! yo soy mas graciosa....
R: no yo!
C: yo! y punto!
R: ah eres tan tan...!
C: molesta? jaja tu lo eres mas!
R: okey tienes razón a veces soy molesto....
C: aja pero eso te hace cool como yo
R: jaja ambos somos cooles!
C: claro que si!
N: se van a estar peliando todo el dia?!
M: no lo se... "nervioso"
C: ah ahora no estábamos peleando!
R: decidimos que ambos somos graciosos y cooles hmm hmm!
C: no como ustedes!
R y C: jajajjajajajja
N: esto es la guerra
M: hmm hmm!
R: bien lo decidiremos en unos partidos de videojuegos...
C: cada uno tiene su equipo de dos...
R: el que gana es mas cool...
C: y si no la próxima pagan las pizzas
R y C: Hmmm Hmmm Hmmm
Conociendonos....:cap 3bueno chicos ....lo subo asi no me aburro jaja
N:See yo hice lo mismo,pero juge uno de los mejores de ahi! y nos despidieron ! "colorada"
M: jaja pero debio ser cool el trabajo no?
R: digo videojegos......
C: ah si! a excepción de nuestro jefe era asi como un Benson "cara de..¬_¬"
N: seee! no se crean! era muy cool trabajar ahi!,y si! los videojuegos eran geniales! "sonríe"
C: no se imaginaban lo furioso que se ponia nuestro jefe...
R: jaja me lo imagino.....*rie*
C: ríes muy gracioso Rigby jaja
se miran durante un segundo sonriendo
N: *celosa* bueno creo que debemos seguir
M: a si ya casi terminamos!
C: agh! esto es aburrido! D:
N: ya lo se Cami! pero debemos terminar este trabajo o nos despediran ya en el primer dia! "rie"
rastrillaron y rastrillaron hasta pudieron acabar de juntar,apilar y barrer esas hojas......
R: si por fin!
C: ahora a jugar videojuegos!
M: ordenamos pizza?
C: buena idea Mordo!
Butterfly LoveThis is my memory of us.
I meet you.
The butterfly takes shape within the first clasp of our hands,
Molded unknowingly by our fingers,
Its early wings unwittingly cut out of our first startled glance.
Its body builds itself alive in our awareness of each other.
It wants to fly in fearful recognition
It briefly stutters into existence,
While we awkwardly talk at each other
And we make accidental and fleeting connections,
That we sever almost immediately.
It stills and waits when we look away
And it flares in a brief, passing touch.
Its wings unfurl unbearably in my chest
Struggling to burst out.
I cannot breathe because I can't stop smiling.
My hands are trembling
And so am I.
I feel we don't have together at the same time,
Even if we have each other in the same place.
We birth and destroy imaginary, separate swarms,
Flinging them outward and upward,
Their confused bodies with incomplete wings
Shredding into each other senselessly,
Conociendonos....:cap 5jaja OkEy! AcQuI Lo SiGo JeJeJe
N: hmm hmm! veremos quien gana! Cami lo haras con migo
C: esta bien!, pero igual quería jugar con Rigby......
R: entonces jugare contigo!
C: genial! "sonríe"
M: entonces nop tendrán oportunidad conmigo y Noe!
N:jejeje si que si Mordo!
M: hmm hmm!
entraron a la casa y se sentaron Noe y Cami en el sillón cada uno con sus controles
C: te dejare destruida!
N: a si claro!
Empezaron a jugar,Noe iba ganando!
N: te ganare Cami!
C: noo D:
R: vamos tu puedes eres mejor que ella!
C: bueno si tu lo dices
N: ja! no me ganaras!
entonces ahora Cami era la que llevaba las de ganar....no quería quedar mal enfrente de Rigby..
N: Eres buena Cami! pero no tanto como yo!
Entonces empezo a jugar mucho mas rapido y iba a la delantera
C: no me ganes! D:
N: pos parece que lo voy a hacer!
Swimming UpstreamI’ve been fighting the system for so long Iv’e forgotten what I was fighting for
I’ve looked through every window but never opened a door
I’ve shared more than I could yet less than I should
I give my time freely when few would
I’ve spared myself when no one else did
When everyone cheered I dug myself a pit
Here I am, Here I am
A lion trying to stay a lamb
Nights I would self ridicule and torment
Feeling stupid and small, I’m helpless, After all
The many voices in my head singing my lament
While my inner demons have a ball
Always seeing visions in my head
Mirrors thought to be long dead
Given to me by friends once true
Mistakenly friends I thought I knew
One day I feel stronger then the last
Then suddenly weaker then times past
Here I am, Here I am
Fighting mind over matters when what matters is HERE I am
Silent TreatmentFor hours in between seconds;
Choosing should you cry, should I walk away
Touching you in ways I never could
Realizing I am a shear image of broken glass
From the moment, when the word slipped from my bitter mouth
It was irreplaceable to the point there was no return
It was awkward that it basis on surprise, in public, in morning light
Touched you so deeply and leaves an open wound bleeding relentlessly
It was ok to be reluctant to face certainty, should you fade away.
It was very clear that this life feels so unfair.
Too devastated to understand this was the moment
You tried preventing
You prevent dreaming
You dreamt avoiding
You avoided talking about…
Complete my LifeWith you in my mind
everything is perfectly fine
The moments where I can feel
all the love and care throughout this world
With you in my thoughts
I know that this was all worth it
of all the feelings I ever felt
this is the best feelings of all
Knowing there is love to this world
instead of pain all around
I now know there is hope to move forward
knowing that you are always my guide
Through the darkness you shine
making it all vanish into thin air
with the smiles that you have
I know that this was meant to be
Every moments you are gone
all I can think about is You
It makes all the bad go away
and just bring good within me
You have rescued this life I live
You have saved me from the darkness
You shined in my Life
when no one ever has before
Now all I can think about
is being with you all the time
cause it is true
that you complete the Life that I live
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