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RIP BuddyI treasure you,
deep inside my heart.
You are my best friend,
as well as the family I loved.
You were the light to my day,
the darkness in the night.
You helped me stand tall,
when I felt like falling apart.
You were always part of my life,
from the darkest days to the light.
I love you dearly with all my heart,
there are no words to describe.
You will be apart of my heart,
cause now faith is within you.
You have made me stronger to this day,
and through the years that are about to come.
I will treasure you with all my heart,
you are the perfection within my life.
I love you dearly with all my heart,
and now you belong deep inside me.
What you are. The PromiseYour smile is like heaven,
filled with hope, filled with love,
that only you could have ever given.
Your eyes shine like stars,
watching upon me,
as I live my life to the fullest.
Your heart warms my life,
it is so caring and very warm welcoming,
that only you could have ever shown.
Your life is my treasure,
that I will cherish,
and keep it like precious gold.
You are the sun in the day time,
that brought me to find happiness,
peace and carefree to this world.
You are the moon at night,
watching down upon me,
as I sleep with magical dreams.
You are the love of my life,
that looks down upon me,
helping me guide the way to happiness.
You were always my lover,
my life, my treasure,
and I will always love you
and that is the Promise I shall keep
My DestinyI'm a loner cause I dont trust.
I smile on the outside but dead on inside.
I have many weaknesses, but also strengths.
I wish someone would understand so I dont feel alone.
But everyone is clueless and Im left alone.
Maybe this is my destiny.
Maybe Im better off alone..
Better off AloneI don't have hopes. I don't have dreams.
I am a Nobody. I am a Failure
I don't see the light, I only see the Darkness.
I am better off alone, away from this world.
I don't trust. I don't believe in anything.
Maybe I will be alone forever, cause it was always meant to be.
I used to love someone, now I am in pieces.
I don't see a point to life, I only see a mistake I am.
I have many weaknesses, but i know my strengths.
Maybe one day I will be strong enough,
but until that day comes, im dead to the world.
Cause without the one I cared for, I dont see a point in Living
EverydayEveryday the pain consumes
More and more as time passes by
Everyday I start to give up,
the more the pain has burden inside...
Everyday I lose hope in life
Abuse after abuse
trauma after trauma,
I dont see hope left in my life..
Everyday I lose my grip,
i feel more sadness, than ever felt before...
But everyday I pretend to smile..
than maybe this pain will be gone forever
But this was a lie that I told myself,
the pain is still inside me..
and these memories still arise.
Everyday I will try to smile...
maybe one day it will be gone for good..
Everyday it makes struggles in my life,
but not a moment to spare, i find ways to cope..
So everyday I will fake a smile,
not cry a single tear..
Maybe in the end I will become strong...
and maybe an Angel will take me high above.
Cause in the end, I dont deserve this pain
Maybe the sadness will so disappear.
So everyday I will fake a smile...
and maybe one day, someone will take this pain away...
You Destroyed MeI wish you understood,
that you were my friend
But you found so many ways,
to rip my heart into pieces..
You used to be there,
you always helped me stand tall.
But now I see that these were lies,
you never cared about me at all...
I thought of you as a friend,
but your just like everyone else.
Now just leave me alone in this world,
and watch me suffer into the night.
I lost so many people,
I am better off alone.
You were my friend,
but you destroyed the only thing that mattered.
You destroyed my trust,
you destroyed my life.
so leave me the hell alone,
and watch me suffer in this world alone..
Is what we have Real?I yearn to hold you,
to be with you for all eternity.
I yearn to love you
to show you what we have is real..
But is it truly real?
Or is what we have is fake?
I year to hug you,
to love you forever
To be with you always
to always be a part of your life.
I yearn to say "i love you"
to be in your life forever
I want to be your only
to be the one for you
cause what we have is real
And when I don't have you
I am lost in this world alone..
Broken SoulMy heart is broken
it will never be repaired
You broke my soul
you broken the promises
I dont know what I did wrong
I dont know how you could do this
My soul is in pieces
I have a breaking bleeding heart
You broken it in pieces
made these tears fall on my face
what did i do...
to deserve so much pain
You hurt my soul
you made my heart bleed
You have no idea
of the damages you have caused
why didnt you tell me...
if i hurt you or not
do you even care?
or even love me for that matter
I lost my love
I lost my friends
I wish you understand
of the feelings I have
But just like everyone else
you dont understand
you dont know me...
i wish this pain was no longer here
A breaking hurt
a hurting soul
Love is the pain
there is no more happiness...
Loved you from the StartYou were my love
my life time desire
but you found so many ways
to shatter my heart in pieces
You were my life
my forever and always
but everything that we been through
was always a lie at the start
You found ways to hurt me so deep
and i swear you dont understand
the pain you have caused
You shattered me completely
broken every part of my heart
I wish we could start over...
than maybe it would of turned out better
You dont understand what i go through
to be able to hold onto
but you have no idea
of the pain that you caused
I'm sorry Im not perfect
I'm sorry that im not beautiful enough
to be able to have you forever
Maybe one day you will realize
when i am no longer here
that i was always the one
that loved you from the start..
frostbittenmy fragmented bones are
chipping away and you stutter
that it wasn’t your fault
and i'm wondering if the
crystal frost on your eyelids has plagued
if the warm beating of your pulse has
disintegrated into the moon's
eternal curse of never letting
Just wanted you to knowTo me you are the most amazing thing, like the sun!
You shine so bright and you never dim until you go down.
You are my flower that I will care for.
And yet even though you tell me to go to sleep I can't. Because I love you too much.
When I talk to you I feel as if I've been injected with morphine because I feel so calm.
When I feel as if I've made you angry I feel every bone in my body fracture.
When you tell me you cry I can't help but do the same.
Its coming to Christmas soon.
And your the only Christmas I need.
And you are all I need.
I can't wait to hug you.
I can't wait to kiss you.
But there's more.
You're laugh lifts me up.
Your smile is like being confronted by diamonds.
Your hair is just simply. Fluffy.
Your eyes shine like stars.
And I promise on Christmas Eve I will stay up to talk to you. All night for me but all day for you.
All I want is you to be happy!
Because your happiness means everything to me.
Your the most beautiful thing to me.
Thought I'd just let you kno
When We Dancewhen we dance
for both the very first and last time
I feel like crying
raking my hands up and down
your willing body I know we will
be like this after today
for I know happy endings
are not meant for pairs like you and me
each time I see your smile hear your laughter
when I feel your heat slipping in-between our clasped
silhouettes my hand grasping at your hair playfully
I know this is the beginning
and the end
all in one
once and for all
I know it is indeed better for us both to part ways
to keep dreaming instead of acting on the feelings
buried deep underneath all of our daily problems
expectations of this pitiful life
that has to be spent alone
it is better for you to run away from me
as much as
it is acceptable for me not to look you in the eye
when I feel your back and throat
when your voice resonates deep within me
as you say
you love me
and I cannot swallow the bitter lump filling my throat
chemistrynitrogen is essential for all living
and i'm wondering if you're my
if i can just live off of you.
Odd CoupleThe two of us come from different worlds
An East Coast Boy meets a West Coast girl
As a white boy, I never dreamed I would love a Chicana
And that the Chicana would love me!
Both of us are strange
Nerds, geeks, and weirdos
But she makes me happy
She loves me tenderly
So, I say to her cordially
"I love you for you accept me as I am"
Her response is, "I can't wait to be yours always"
Large, hairy, ugly am I
Deserving her I do not
Yet, you loves me all the same
And actually thinks I'm cute
Fancy that as it may
We make an odd couple
"Cherish this always and don't lose it"
That's my plan
It's a Different Kind of StubbornMystically, he shed the burden,
he came to me with certitude,
he asked me to speak as I please.
We go caroling and voyaging
through the rain of jungles and
charming ways shown by
our very own sincerity.
Together, fearless, we stand,
hand-in-hand, as he whispers
to me and screams to the world
that we are us and us is true.
We've become fighters for ourselves,
each other, the siblings we refuse
to let go to false family love.
He doesn't submit
while we carry our anger
in the vulnerability of our palms,
because our insides are locking
strength, grace, and hate away.
I told him, I meant it,
I told him love was strong,
I told him love was a strong word.
He smiled at me.
He kissed my forehead and
said he loved me too.
When Will I Fall In Loveit kills me to see all the youth
frolicking together merrily
falling in love blissfully
kissing each other tenderly
holding their lover tightly
it pains me to hear about weddings
giggling brides bragging bout their lives
sharing stories of their partners ways
offering up advice on my todays
giving me sympathy, unwanted apathy
my lack of
it aches me to disregard my own feelings
trying to hold back tears of selfish agony
forcing myself to smile despite the pain
passing it off as a joyous bout instead
finding my best effort of composure, acting
just as it
To Whom It May ConcernTo whom it may concern:
I remember that cold February day
And the butterflies inside me
And the lifelong friend I spent so many hours with
Even though those were the only few hours we'd yet been friends.
To whom it may concern:
I relive it.
That first date, that first kiss, that first adventure
The kindred spirit I found in you
The moment we officially became "quirkytogether"
And I knew how it felt to be true to both you and to me.
To whom it may concern:
For that sad day in summer
When I had to say goodbye.
I had to listen to my head
And my head told me to fulfill a duty
Because a soldier of love never gives up,
Not on a sure thing.
To whom it may concern:
I've missed you
And all the places we used to go
And the stories we used to share;
The grand adventures to little places
And all the journeys I never got to take.
To whom it may concern:
I feel, still,
The warmth of your embrace
The flavor of your kisses
The magic from your smile
And how it felt to be one
Lazy Afternoonyou are so beautiful just like you are
no need for any superfluous gestures
tonight your warm touch is all I ask for
your neck your knees
your toes your back
so smooth and yet elegantly arched forward
I do not want to be selfish in this pleasure of mine
and as your voice whispers invitingly in my ear
and as your softly smiling face looks back at me
I know that we are two sides of the same coin
found after so many years of a seemingly incurable void
with the music resonating through our room
I am sure everything will be more than fine tonight
and perhaps we will find a place for us both in the world
ready to murder and strip us from anything that we love
if we are not careful enough and do not mind each step we take
be my muse tonight darling and let me make you immortal
as we kiss and sculpt each other and the poem
is the only witness that I ever knew you
that you ever cared and that we did find each other
in this vast and yet fucked-up universe
Nothing more then what I wantWhen I first met you
My heart raced
a million times faster
then you will ever know
The words I always say
the things I always do
None of it can show you
how I truly feel about you
The miles apart we are
the long talks all the time
Everything that has ever happened
this is all just a new beginning for me
A life full of happiness
a Life full of Hope
In this world we all live in
To me this is all Fate
Nothing can express
Nothing can show
How I truly feel about you
to this day of our life
Cause my love it is true
You mean the whole world to me
and there is nothing I want
more then to live the rest of my life with you
on old sanzu - absolutely true fictionlast fall i stole my friend down by the tama river. we sang. we danced. we skipped dead fish like rocks and watched them get swallowed by the undertow. we got sick off of bad chinese food and went skinny-dipping and then a week later she drowned herself.
her uncle was a yakuza, i think, but he really just wanted to be al pacino or something. anyway, she loved him a lot. maybe that’s why she went down the way she went down; cement shoes. not real cement, but it was the same idea. she had two cloth bags with yellow-painted cinderblocks inside, and they were tied to her ankles like the prisoners’ chains from o brother where art thou.
in my mind’s eye i can see her, limping dreadfully close to the edge of the current, her left hand gripping at her breasts through a loose t-shirt. kneeling by the wastelands, elbows in the gravel, crawling forward out into the water. angry like a dermis under wool, all teeth and salt and sand. sleepy, submissive, sublimated.
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