Staring out at the window...

Staring out at my window at night
thinking about everything
thinking about the past

Staring at the shining stars
calming me
and seeing if i can hear God

But all i hear are random voices in my head
telling me to go die
telling me that i dont belong here

Staring out at the window at night
tears rolling down my face
and crying to myself

The pain deep inside
that no one see
crying for help

No self esteem
no life i want to live
just crying myself to sleep every night

I stare at the window
staring at the stars
hoping to disappear someday some how....